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Revive.

2011-04-12T06:34:00.000-07:00

I revive -.- hurhurhur. It seems like how many decades since I had last blog. Many changes in my life lately. Don't know from where or when I should start to relate from. still the weak girl who cannot take up any blows. frickle minded girl who can't make up my decisions. low-self esteem girl who hardly can take any critism. affected girl who cant seem to not bother about the surroundings. nothing much changes, but I always thought that my piriority did. It changed unknowingly. prob the things which I had been through,changed me quite alot. relationship will prob be the last thing I will ever think of. fate still runs my life. strong believer of it,no matter what. I realise this is the best reason to many unexplainable things.

I need a real change.

2010-11-26T06:35:00.001-08:00

Suck to be over-sensitive,
suck to assume things easily as what i seen,
sucks to stereotype.
sucks to be a loser.(blame the whole matter on myself even I know its not my fault)
Thats me.so me.
I seriously don't mind giving in to make things pleasant again.
If this can made anybody happy,I don't mind.
But why situation always appear to be such a wreck even how much effort i tried in salvaging it.
why.
Always thought that compromising will difinitely helps,
but realised it dont.NOT AT ALL.
In turn,people took for granted of it.
why can't people see the point of what I am doing.
I need a change.
A real change.

I finally revived my blog!

2010-11-26T06:35:00.000-08:00

Suck to be over-sensitive,

suck to

I'm DAMN SHAG.

2010-09-03T23:10:00.000-07:00

Feels damn shag.
My daily routine is like sleeping from 2-3am till next morning 10/11am.
seriously feels sick of the entire routine.
cos it makes feel more shag only.
The entire day,
I can get very reckless/weak even performing some effortless task.
Quite a Goner man
I wonder when When can I be as Rong guan huan fa(energectic) as before.
Holidays is the cause,I swear la.
Recently,
had been doubting on certain things.
Probably,
when people around me starts to make a din out of it,
only then I starts to make such assumption.
And yay this assumption,was like super wrong.
Best.These assumptions made me think,worry, feeling helpless for a period of time.
phew.
can't believe we actually thought the same thing and didn't know how to bring the words across to each other.
But I'm really glad that things are clearer to us now.
(:
going to bro's chalet later,
hope it will be fun(at least not till the extend I will emo in the room)
Gosh.sounds like a stupid emo shit.
omg.yeah I need to catch up with my exams already!
Panicking nowww.

Vacation so far.

2010-08-24T07:26:00.000-07:00

A day out with this 9 years bitch.yes,we never fail to not make a scene at almost everywhere.
weird people,weird hangouts,weird thoughts.Because this is how we bond,for the ultimate 9 years.
I'll miss you.meet up like soon again!
oh yah please don't come action to me "your xiaohonghong" hahah!

The most potential knight.(Y)

Yog click 5 concert!A day when we got really high! blast of music+loud screams+Jumping rapidly

A awesome night with w14B+camwhore likeneverending + lepak/talk cock + drinks

before we officially finished our year 1 sem 1.

I love you all.(:

So far,

Vacation was so great.

Great in a sense,

I'm like enjoying myself almost everyday.

gosh.(At least,I did abit of revision*just to keep myself calm*)

Maybe I should try studying alittle for cognitive and enterprise later on,which is quite impossible.Motivation,I need you.

Starbucks ice mocha frappocino seemed to be always the thing which can motivate me.

At least a motivator.

but buying starbucks everyday,is not cheappp at all.

gotta cut down my expenses.

beechow was like also saying I am always eating Ho liao everydayyy.

kay,from now on,

Renee tan will go for lok pok,cheap skate food.

even something classy,I make sure it comes with a voucher/coupon which made it worth it.

Lok pok enough?

seriously auntie to the core already,I swear!

I've a sore red wound which might appeal to infection ):

pray hard that it'll be okayyy soon.

It's fugly and made me worried that it might takes months to even recover.

haissss.howwwwwww.wei she me.
Its been quite a long time(1 year plus),since we talk.

After a moment of .............................

suddenly,was wondering how have you been/how you're living.

Be it with your girl or be it the guy whom I last saw with a smile on.

I just hope you're doing fine. :)

For now,

Renee tan gotta study hard.

real hard.in the days not working/no outings.

concentration pills,i need you badly too.

I think people who is reading this or know me well,

will probably be thinking "She and her whatever pills again ZZZZ"

It marks my first ever sem 1.

2010-08-13T19:07:00.000-07:00

15 weeks passed as though it's yesterday.
really fast.
And it's really a miracle,
to make such a close bond with my classmates.
went singapore river,
take a bite,drank breezer,talk cock/lepak about how much we'll miss each other.
Or probably for the first time,
I've seen the soft sight of w14b.
Hug every of my classmates,
I fought back with my tears.real badly.
And Made a final group hug before we finally depart.
Damn.
gona miss them.like badly too.
Okay I've yet to have any comfirmed plans for holiday.
But i gotta study for UT3,then work i guess.
I need moneh and something which can burn part of my holiday.
I can't be a lifeless soul rotting at bukit batok.
damn loserish.
sudden wishlist for a makeover
feeling really sick about myself.
like the clothes and shoes.
I need more wedgessssss.
Yes,a strong motivation for me to workkkk.
Yes,i'll upload all the pics of hui si'18 and w14B soonnnnnnnnn.
For the last time,
I gona say to you guys,
I love you.
Though you know we're not able to get into the same class anymore,
we're so gona meet up like before.
Thanks for every moments you guys create.
It's all etched in my heart.

I wana have inception in my life.

2010-08-12T04:10:00.000-07:00

If I could at least have a moment of inception,
I'll enjoy the most desirable dream till my fullest.
:)
sadly,I think I can't.
reality is all that I need to face at the end.
sigh.
how i wish I can just store all the happy memories and discard all the bad ones.
But no.
we can't make things the way we want it to be.
"what if our life was actually an inception"
It hit me.real hard.
Fated,You will be guilty for life if you see this.
MUHAHAHA
recently,
national day,
enjoyed huisi's 18,
drank and had a hangover(best,and still need to go to school the next morning)
really love the photo frame I made for hui si.
I kept peeping at it every now and then.
haha.like a sickoooo.
Because it simply reminds me all the happy memories we had been through.
really much.since 3 years ago.:)
I brought her a pair of wedges too.
And for the first time,
she wore it and same height as me.
HAHHAHAHA.Kay,i shall stop saying/doing sinful actssss.
:)
went over to timah,
have ho liao dinner with kianyong.
forever,
we'll be like eating 3 dishes plus 1 big bowl of soup.
fat shit.like need go tuff club after eating.zzz.
And he love to stuff all the food into my bowl of rice.
And we'll be like forever aiming each other rice bowl and stuff with food.
yes damn loserish.I knowwww.
But always have a awesome dinner everytime i go there.(Y)
And todayyy
I experienced a sudden pierce of pain through my flesh ):
I stood on the ultimate last step of the bus door when I am suppose to stand on at least the last second of the steps
some inconsiderate people somehow push me back.
The bus door somehow scratched my flesh and left me a sore red bloody flesh.
I didn't realise I was actually bleeding throughout when I was cheonging to my class.
nearly faint at the sight when I saw it):
fated accompany me throughout.
thanks idiot.always never fail to be there for me
:)
On the way back home,
was told about certain things.
kept pondering about my own flaws.
I dont know.
All these led me think that I kinda suck.
yes affected.pretty affected by this friend words.
was pretty agitated and piss by the words,
but thought for a moment,
maybe I really suck this time round.
Gotta work hard at all these flawsss,renee tan.);
tommorow is the last day of school.
15 weeks of school with you guys,
I'll never forget.
be it joy,laughter,sorrows,anxiety we shared.
All these stored in renee tan's memory vividly.
Thanks w14B.
I love you all.

Freaking mood ruined by a stewpig msn.

2010-08-08T18:22:00.001-07:00

virus virus virus.

how to clear it.

I spent my night figuring how to even removeee it till like 3am.

Super loserish.yesss.

yst was suppose to be a happy day.):

Had a awesome dinner + a awesome fast spree of hui si's present.

Screw you.I mean the problems.

2010-08-07T11:18:00.000-07:00

2.19am now.
我好烦。
I am not sleeping.
Its not that I've no guts to lie it through,
is just that I wouldn't even dare to think of the consequences you'll face it later on.
I can't take this risk.No.
I can't toss a coin.Is not as if I am choosing some ice cream flavour.
And I rather I make it through by my own identity.
with me.myself.to solve this problems.
Arg.
But I afraid things would turn out bad.really bad.
And all of what we planned,
vanished into thin airs.
Finally,we disappoint her.
Basket.
screw this problem.
Hope we can get it through.
):

So long people around me are happy,I'll be.

2010-08-06T10:09:00.000-07:00

Nah,fated This is for you.
Bernadette chow.
Aint A scarey face to freak you out,
but hope you forgo all the sorrows,
and be like a happy girl like before.
Yes,please feel touched about it can.HAHAHHAHA(:

Yesterday had home learning.
A nice day to start with.
Because I made breakfast for myself.Like finally.:)
It might not be some 6-star standard international breakfast buffet,
but the baguette + scrambled egg + sausages + gauva juice brighten up my whole morning la!
Then went over to starbucks to do my ppt slides + worksheet => which is quite a failure.
I think I am more engaged in The half price icemocha frappocino with ceramel!
okay,quite loserish cos of the half price,but you know this rocks when you ever got to drink a starbuck drink at 3.50!
All Thanks to yunnie!
STAFF PRICE.HAHAHA.
kay I am not literally using her discount,
a better sentence to phrase it as such is,
I am going there to accompany her! (I gona be dead meat,if she see this :( )
But seriously Thanks babe.Gona say it another time,and please grin at it this time round alright :)
I think I am kind of addicted to sticky and jellybeans.
Recently,
every minute,
what goes in my mouth,
are all these lovely sweets.
gona get diabetes soon if I were to consume this like everyday.zzz.
Damn nice.especially the hard rock grape/strawberry!
Love it,thanks to the very noob jiahao:)
Finally brought the khaki pants already! oh my!
10290239409230 years of wishlists is finally fufilled.
yeah and I am thinking if i should like alter it.
It looks kind of loose in me.especially the wraist + the legg part.
People(fated + salesgirl) said it looks alright/rather nice(a form of por) haha.
wah.I can't believe I am contemplating it at this time.(currently 1.33am)
so loserish of me.
yes,I think I am way contented enough,
with all those people who created my life which was meant to be.
If what I could do to make them feel happy,
It might be the one of the moment I am living to the fullest.:)
I am silly.but it doesn't matter.
:)

Way too happy.yes I mean now.

2010-08-04T09:16:00.000-07:00

Thanks fated.

for the starbucks,

Ice mocha frapocino with ceramel drizzle.

you makes my day(Y)

One idiot gave me a stewpig surprise today morning,

thought that I wouldn't know.

even know she might be late,still perform some silly act.

Yes.you.bernadette chow.never fail to NOT appear in my blog almost everyday.

always made silly acts in my rp sem 1 life which touched me alot.

We might seem too close to be mistaken for some lesbian act.

HOWEVER,

we're not."I still stand a chance for any hawt guy not?" hahaha!

One of the bestest friend and closest kin.I love you :)

Had enterprise lesson todayy,

and I swear laughter literally kills me.as in.my stomach.

constantly disturbed by my classmates made me felt like a all-time-sua-ku.

I think I totally need guidience on how not to be a sua ku,not to be blur cock,and not to become a joke of somebody's life.

arg :/

5 more days to go,

I wonder how am I gotta not miss this class.

People said "The friends whom you met in poly for the 1 sem,will be the one who remain true to you as always."

I don't hope,I don't pray hard for.

Cos I strongly believe it's credible.(step one cognitive-thinking,HAHAHHA)

After school,

was accompanying yunnie to westmall to get her top,

and accompany her to the bus stop,

and waited for her bus to come.SUCHA GOOD FRIEND CAN.HAHAHA.OH NO,SLEF PRAISES.

when i took a glance on the familar path,

the familiar route i used to mingle about,

for the past four years,

yes,I kind of miss it now.

with my greeny bukit view uniform,backpack,japalang hair tied,pale-face look.

omggggggg.

yes,all these.

well,so long that is a factor such as time,

no matter where you go now,what you do now,who you are now,

by tommorow,

Its classified under the past and make up a thing called memory.(step-one-philosophy! lol.)

omg quite fail eh my philosophy.

Just like how primary school kids can come out with.haha.

But no matter what,

things that I had seen today,

really made me super ultra miss my secondary days.

No school tommorow.

But gotta wake up at 8.30 do some powerpoint slide like any normal dayys.which is quite zzz.

BUT!

In giving myself motivation,

I gotta make myself,

scrambled egg and Baguette.(Y)

Hope today rain.

strong breeze + nice breakfast + 8.30 wake up.

please feel jealous of my thursday! hahah! :)

Shall give a smile for today :)

2010-08-01T08:23:00.000-07:00

yearn for a life just like jellybeans.
brightful and sweetttt.like neverending.

Was pretty happy today,
don't know why.
perhaps fufill part of my shopping list.
or probably met fated on a sunday.
She was pretty insane too,don't know for what reasons,she keep disturbing(more of guailaningzxz) me,
and the ironical part that,she is enjoying it.-.- (RENEE FIERCE THEN YOU KNOWWWW)
way more to go.e.g clark kee colour pants,marc jackob tote,wedges..
save moneh,save moneh,save moneh,save moneh.
I need to.
Please give me motivation.
I totally need it.ALL OF IT.
Yes,and I gona sleep soon.
Like noww.
sick and dreading to bed but I bet I can't sleep.
Hope not isonomia.
Yesterday was a sweet night though.
really sweet.But dreamt alot of stuffs which I never expected it.
Thanks god,
it was just a unrealistic dream,
can't imagine if it really do happen one day.
AM I GONA BE A STEWPIG HUM AND HIDE UNDER MY BED?!?
haha.
hope not.
yayyy.be strong.
okay I think I am happy like crazy like madly.
sleep.now.renee.tan.
seems.like.I.am.talking.to.my.own.blog.
(:

I was exceptionally weird.

2010-07-30T09:25:00.000-07:00

guess everything is pretty weird today.
like myself,my body,feelings.
I feel weird.
sore throat + feverish + the weather makes the surrounding super cold! + need to rack my brain cells for science modules today.
that makes a sucky start of my day.):
For bernadette chow(:
And i seem to be really hostile towards fated today.
Sorry fated.made you worried for me.like the entire day.
Yes,for a million times,i wana thanks you for always being there for me.I will do too.
Please don't feel sad over some things that you can't do for me,
please don't so noob can.haha.
If not,I shall make you guilty-for-life.(:
After school,met jiahao for movie+ dinner in lailai + starbucks(like what i expected,he fails to order my desire drink! but nvm la!)
Ice mocha frapacino + cermal drizzle inside(well blend together)
My self edited drink.
And i only introduced this to fated.(:
"STOP GRINNING AT THIS UH,FATED^^"
feel so much better after leaving school,
have a good laugh over the movie,
Enjoyed the lailai dinner,
chilling at starbucks,
cab home like again.
yes,and the grape rock sticky sweet is damn Niceeee.holy nice.I swear.
thanks friend,for the sweet.
You did reduced my emoness.(Y) hahah!
oh yah,
I really need to study hard for UT 3.
Strong motivation is needed by Renee tan.
Looking forward upcoming plan for hui si's 18.
I wana watch inception.seems like everyone have watched it already! argg.):
Thats all.
hope what I thought today,was just a illusion.
This is not gona happen.It will never be.
yes.

affectedgirl93@

2010-07-29T05:41:00.000-07:00

suddenly,I miss all those crazy times.A year ago.
And it literally reminds me everything that had happened A year ago.
A silly girl who never fails to force herself to carry a smile.
I mean me,not her.
But I'm pretty glad to have her by my side at that moment.
(: teehee.

Affectedgirl93@hotmail.com. -Not for adding,It's solely describing the way I am nowww.
sounds really loser,but yes,I think I am totally a loser.zzz.
People affected by mutual feelings from either friends,family or anything that is part of their life,
I do too.
But I was also affected by some non-frictional music or mv.
Totally noob to the core.
I should seriously stop all these man.
Nowadays I was frequently late for class,
and my blurness had caused me being such a din.
I actually took the wrong bus and landed me up to my market place and not to the interchange,
wasted hell lots of time,
and late for school like again.
"-0.5" ):
so tempted to buy marc jackob's tote and broken stock sandals.
But there is already a whole in my pocket nowww.A medium size one.):
yesterday,when bernard was talking to me about his friend's problem and stuff,
I've a sudden thought about fated :/
It will never be easy.I do really hope one day,fated will change for what I said.):
How i wish I can walk through this path of life at ease.This is never gotta happen but at least I try to hope.hahah!
argg 2 weeks more,I gotta miss school
not for the boring modules(e.g.programming),but my classmates.especially all those talk cocks and lepak sessions.you people will be greatly miss by renee tan! (:

Like 10000000 things floating in my mind.

2010-07-26T07:16:00.000-07:00

feels reckless nowww and it's weird feeling this way on a sunday.

2010-07-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

starbucks with two act cute :)
Yunnie attika daemar,thanks for telling me from your bottom of your heart.About everything.
I love you,babe.

I miss them.really much.look forward for the next outing at yog(:

Finally posted pictures,

if not my blog will a god damn plain emo post.

I've been slacking right from the morning till the night,

just by staying at home.so sucky.

Have been pondering about things again(okay,I think I'll never stop getting emo)

but in a good way,really.

was emotionally affected yesterday,

when i went out with yunnie to catch despicable me!

That show was awesomeee,love the small girl!

kay I shall pray to god,

the next time i were to bear a child,

she must be as cute as the small girl! :)

yunnie and I were two noobs,

wondering around north point to seek for the yishun theatre.

so adventurous of us.

Just short of the maps,torchlights,backpack and etc.

hurhurhur.

Had a heart-to-heart talk later on,

after we settle down at macdonald(starbucks is fully packed:/)

yeah,tear for alittle at there and tear another bit while going home in the mrt.

Loser me.

when can I ever not be so weak.

Strong pills,I need you.

But thanks god,

he/she(if god appear to be a girl/guy:)) gave me an affinity to meet the friends who have great significiance to my life.:)

To elsie chong yun yuan(if you happen to see this post):

Hoi,Bitch like forever oie oie oie.yes,I'm madly touched by your words in msn la!reguardless where we go,yes,I'll never forget you.Friends,like forever (: Hate you la,why friendship with me for 9 years,make me loveee you so much.Remember the days we hang out together with xinyi and huiwen for the 6 years.greatly miss by renee tan! "we have to let go enough to be happy,hold on enough not to repeat the same mistake" I'll mark your words.I mean it.Still remember those days when my relationship failed,you ask me to cry it out.just cry it out,I'll feel better.YES and I really feel better and I am glad of your presence.Bloody hell,can freaking create one FACEBOOK ACCOUNT ANOT YOU? make me piss only.Don't act one anti social can anot,msn isn't the IN thing la.I love you,elsie.:)

I'm happy,probably only for now.

2010-07-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

Recently,
alot of things hurt me badly.really.
It does.
Family.
Everyday I return home happily with a smile on,
just hoping that home will be the place I can keep my smile on.
I'm wrong.Very wrong.totally.
It's bad, feeling so empty and devastated at home these few days.
Just hope things will turn out well for me.
Finally brought my formal shirt,
after like 3 days of tough search.
End up,
brought a ralp lauren slim fit long sleve.
This is how fickle minded I am.Yes,admiting now.
Life so far,
taught me well of friendship.
It made me really cherish the friends I had.
And today,
This silly girl tears really made me know the significance of how I am,as a friend.In her heart.
Her tears make it so true that,
I nearly cried too.NEARLY.
I guess this is why we are really fated to be as friends.(:
Holidays please reach me now.
National day please reach me now too.I wana see fireworks.
so manyyyy thingsss in my brain liaoooooooo.

I blow up my top.

2010-07-14T08:42:00.000-07:00

Too abnormal to even blog here,today.
I think I'm stress.
Programming is one of the killer.
It killed me.made me feel so aimless.
so glad that I only do it over for just sem 1!
after 4 weeks,
I'll be parting with my class.
From the day I told myself "wah shit,how? no friends eh?"
till today,I start to doubt about this sentence which I've said two months ago.
I guess,I'll miss this class.(:
A very short limit of time,
but bundle with friendship,happiness,bonds,quarrels,partial team,
I'll never forget all these.
It marks the first ever memories since I entered poly.
Almost forgotten about my cui programming,
okay just wish for a pass.
Just a pass will do,
Renee tan isn't greedy.AT ALL.
(:

I need energy-boast birdnest!

2010-07-12T03:02:00.000-07:00

Freaking shag.
worldcup is the cause.i swearrrrrrrr.
And i found out something,
I think I'm really not cut out for bets/gamble.
I wish I have supernatural powers like paul,
who could predict wordcup within a tank with 2 box of country flag.
Just had lessons,
and today,
everyone is perfectly NOT normal.
left just 3 teams presentations,
i even have thoughts of partial.
facilator was pms today.Though is a he.
don't really favour this faci,so shall not even elaborate much.
sometimes,
i wonder why am i dwelling all these things,
which often remind me of my past.
yes,i do miss it.
only happy moments.not the sad ones.
I found out something.
Frequently,
when humans grab hold of too many things in his/her hands,
he/she will felt like letting it go.
similarly when humans let go all the things previously in his/her hands,
he/she will tend to yearn all the things to be place on their hands again.
How ironical human beings can be.
so do i.
I've many random thoughts.
hope I do fufill them after my UT.

when you're contented of your life right now,It starts to screw up the next moment.

2010-07-07T08:06:00.000-07:00

Arg.
why.
why life must be a darn astronology of a rollercoaster.
When you are right up,
feeling contented of what you had,
been living till your fullest,
You came crashing down to the lowest point of life.
I'm aint strong.
I'm utterly affectionate.
I'm a fool.
whats more.
I think huge blows is difinitely a threat in life.
I seriously felt like I'm polluting my blog with my anger.
argg.
sorry blog.
I shall post pictures for the next time.

Thanks life,I'm quite satisfied.

2010-05-31T06:49:00.000-07:00

Hello fated,I think whatever happened,do made us meant to be as friends.I thanks fate,for making it true to us.:)
3 High in Bhbness = hard to overcome! haha!

with wanlin in Jp,suddenly thought of the days we used to camwhore there!Kinda miss everything right now:(

Mr tan's farewell chalet.Do takecare Tan huong!

Days when we've tried so hard to act cute! haha!

Like loser smiles! hahah!

(L) for Raynee & Yunnie :)

W14B :)

Life so far,

have been great.

great as compared to the past.

But Difinitely have ups and down.

Days I quarrelled with mum,

Days I dread going to school,

Days I feels emo,

Days I met fated,

Days I have fun with w14B,

Days I fooled myself with Andy,yunnie,nelli chen, and more...

Days I partial with my classmates,

Days I splurge my money on shoppings,

Days when I got to remember all those awful memories,

Days when I miss my friends and love ones,

Days when can I enjoyed ice mocha with caramel,

Days which I'll never know what I'll face tommorow.

SOOOOOOOOOOOO MANYYYYY THINGGGGGGGGGGGGS

currently,

holiday is quite packed with various schdule.

work+outings+shoppings.

Kay,it's at least better than rotting at home.

Cook dried noodle with fried prawns today.

It's a long ago wishlist,

and I finally can eat and cook it for my branch.

FINALLY AS IN,a day without school.

(Y) nice.

Home cooked food,is difinitely one of the best.

Best in a sense,

you know the best of what you want,

what must be added,how you go about making it.:)

Kay,

awaiting for the arrival of various meetings with friends,love ones,and work.

You don't control your life.

Is fate/affinity does.

But By living through your fullest,

no matter what outcomes you face,

You'll never feel sorry about it.

Scars.

2010-04-06T10:24:00.000-07:00

The buangs :)

Webcam with P-sch,hui wen :)

I'm with hippo,she's with turtle.Mine more cute. :) haha.

frequently,

when people randomly asked me,

hey,how's life renee?

i will stumble upon the question.

Mixed feelings,i would say.

new school,new friends,new environment,

how would that be?

hope it's alright.

Scars hidden in me,

often reminds me of the past,

often gave me a flashback on how badly i was hurt,

how i pick myslef up,

to be stronger,bolder,

even i knew i was a all-time vulnerable and emotional girl.

The day i believe there's this miracle I have to strive on.

2010-03-26T08:27:00.000-07:00

wanlin & me.I have sleepy eyes :(

Joker & cute hui si with me:)

Hui si insisted me to take this picture! haha!

Felt darn exhuasted though i slept till 11,this morning.

Made dried noodle with sauage and poached egg.(my all-time fav home-cooked food) :)

Actually yesterday didn't intend to meet wan,nat,sze.BUT!

haven't been seeing them like for decades,sort of miss them :)

That's why,

I can't find any reason not to meet them.

Arg and halfway through,

I lose my flower hairpin :(

It's 2.90,but it meant quite alot to me.

No point signing already.

school starting.

think gotta get one new flashdrive,laptop skin and laptop bag for poly.

And hell no,

i prob not getting from my shop.

cos of the boss.

He's prob gotta give me a 1-2 dollar discount only.

'' niao '' TTM.( hokien term know as stingy)

Days ahead will be extremely tough for me,

if I were to head on for university.

But,

I won't give up.

I'll Give my best shot even how much it takes,

to get on to U.

A fresh start,hopefully.

Hope things ahead runs smoothly.

Don't hope,but strive on,to make this miracle come true.:)

sometimes,i wish there's no drama in my life.

2010-03-18T08:42:00.000-07:00

Hope this friendship kept counting on,even in poly days.

Happy 17 qiongmin.Thanks for these 3 years.:)

At times,i really do loathe myself,

for misleading other people feelings.

arg.

And basket me!

for always hurting so gracious people.

had a great day,

celebrating qiongmin's bday.

Had bladdy cram in the morning.

It nearly killed me.

tried every means and ways to ease the pain.

imagining pouring at least one litre of chinese oilment and kept rubbing in my stomach,

took 2 pills of hardcore painkillers.

And it manage to ease the pain alittle.

nightmare man.I never wana drink cold drinks before having any M anymore.No more.

well,

i really hope he do back off.

At least,things wouldn't be so terrible if we ever got deeper.

life in past feb and early march

2010-03-11T08:17:00.000-08:00

Syafiqah & me.:) The 2 hardcore anti vegetarian with me :)

Photoshoot at henderson wave,marina barage,clark quay.

Flowers which blossomed my day.:)

Laughter is all i yearned for,in life.

more photoshoot pictures in fb.:)

school is starting,like soon.

Enrollment seriously made me so pissed.

So many things to settle,

what tuition grant,acceptance form,and many complicated documents.

And my parents,

all hardcore kan chiong spiders,

the day when i just recieved my enrollment package,

immediately,they wanted me to do everything the next day.

They are really afraid i can't even get a place in poly.

Plus,I'm feeling so hectic after work everyday.

NICE ONE (Y) THUMBS UP!!!

And had a bad day today,

cos i got to face many troublesome customers.

The best thing is that,

one of them actually insisted for a refund when they have even purchased it,and tear the packaging of the product.

Made hell out of noise in my vendors.

seriously suffering ttm.

First time,

I encountered stress in this current job.

nvm,there's diffinitely ups and down,

I can still bear.

Glad that it's not levis anymore.

If not,i might be consulting any of the phycologist now.

Plans before entering school

1) new laptop bag

2) new pencil box with workable pens(many of my friends around me,should know uh) haha :)

3) More bags,more heels/flats,more apparel clothes.

4) finish revamping my room.( new tv set,sofa,new study table,new closet,)

5) no mater what gona save $$$

6) find a hawt guy who look like the percy jackson.LOL.crap.

7) Study real hard for my gpa yo.

8) I can't think of anything already eh...

well,and i suddenly realised many things are so evitable.

Things come and go.shouldn't had hard feelings.

Fate,it's all revolve with.

hope things will be alright for my new school,and not forgetting all of my secondnary school friends.:)

My 17.

2010-02-13T10:13:00.000-08:00

The girls who had brightened up my life.:)

our uber cui faceeeee. The italian side dish eh.

I was actually made to wear this red ribbon hairband and carry

this 3 balloons around.HAHA.Darn embarrassed ttm.

Previously had fun with these 3 girls in partyworld.Thanks all,

for bringing me joy in bvss this 4 years.:)

Its chu yi todayyyy.

But seriously,I still don't feel any whatever spirits or reasons to be happy with it.

HAHAH.I like some kind of pooper,spoiler man.

Went to cheong my cny clothing today,

darn rushing and quick cash,

like seriously desperate for clothes only.

But end up,still quite satisfied lah.:)

These days,my emoness has greatly been reduced.

Less tears,Less thoughts,less negative minded,

Maybe its just the work that occupy my emotions.

No lah,I'm not a pyscho.

Just that I don't know why,

after been through so much sorrows and up downs,

frequently,

I got to think of the future thats ahead of me,

and WORST STILL!!,

I couldn't stop catching a flash of the past,every now and then.

But at least,i'm better now.

Valentine shall be a hostile day for me,

But at least i got my burberry wallettt.
Arggg.love it ttm.:)

okay,wish i get more angbaos,

getting more and more $$$ minded already me.

Hope days ahead for you,me,which is everyone have a happy new year.

2010-01-15T08:06:00.000-08:00

A thousand words that fills up my thoughts.

Friendship,like forever.

The four girls with their silly topshop undies.

They said 2010 will difinitely be a better year than 2009,I starting to doubt so.

For the first few weeks of 2010,

it already gets me a headstart for depression,i guess.

tears during work at levis,

heartbreaking results.

glad that i get to meet up these awesome friends again,

every of us is like so busy with work,school,

and finally we got the chance to meet up just for the day.

Have a fun day with these 3 girls.

I don't know,I just hope i will be fine.

I can be happy,with my friends.

Thats all i wanted.

Hopes.....

:(

2010-01-11T18:42:00.000-08:00

no smile,but tears.

For the previous post.

2009-11-12T18:09:00.000-08:00

I would like to say,
that post is merely just for myself,not for the others..:)
Recently been vexed over certain stuffs,
I simply use my blog to sprout all my discomforts out.
And also,
I just wana say sorry to this friend of mine.Really.
I thought through already,
I should not take things so easily,
and judge people by words without giving them a chance to explain.
glad that everything is back in place.
Yap,I don't wana lose you too,friend.
Sorry.
and updating pictures soonnnnnnnnn:)

No smiles.

2009-11-09T03:39:00.001-08:00

Well,exam's ending soon,in two days time.
But something hit me hard.
after what you said,friend.
Many might think I'm darn pissed.Really pissed.
I'm not.I'm only upset for what you said.
yes,it did hurt me.Really much.
I starts to doubt on our friendship,
starts to doubt on your words,
starts to doubt on our promises and stuff.
You,I starts to doubt on you.everything.
vexed.

The 5th of november.

2009-11-05T07:00:00.000-08:00

Chocolate fondue is difinitely (L).

Can't wait to grab a bite.:)

Joanna & Me.:)

Okay,

All these pictures is probably outdated,

and is probably the only picture i had taken recently.

Was totally putting my mind and soul into my national.

Really wish I don't screw up,

please god,please.:(

That day went to jurong point,

and i flare up over a sales girl.

come to think of that,really make my blood boil.seriously.

I was trying on a rather gorgerous pair of heel.

And that sales girl was darn polite at first,

But she gave a very crude remark after I told her I might reconsider.

she said" what's the use of trying,when you're not even buying in the first place!?!?''

okay,I was darn stunned.Joanna too.We both.

First time,Like in my life,for the first sixteen years,

someone,some strangers,some random sales girl,

glare at me and talk to me as though she's the brillant one here.Obviously she's not.

Okay,I didn't wana pick up a quarrel with her or called up her manager.

So,we just went off in the rage of anger.

Seriously,spoil my day.

Anyway, There's like lots and tons of stuff,I'm looking forward to.

Wednesday,shall be the start.:)

Promises and promises,

with one friend and another,

Really miss them.Really.

Felt like hugging them once my dread o's is over.

26th,working soon.

yay,moneh,moneh.:)

2009-10-14T21:43:00.000-07:00

With them,life is great. :)
okay,I should be studying,but I'm not.
I even self proclaim study leave at home now,yet I haven't done my studying.
How ironic.haha.
sucha long time I had not been blogging.
Just suddenly got the urge to.
Only recently,I just get to know of many unknown's existance.
fate/affinity?
That led me into dwells of different fragments of life.
Many evitable things are happening in us.
HAHA.
OMFG.Since when did I became so hardcore philosphy.
I want end off o's fastfastfast.
I wana tear off my entry proof fastfastfast.
I wana burn my notes fastfastfast.
ew.I'm a anti-o's ttm fan.
yah,I am also bothered about which hairstyle should i change?
I need a real makeover fastfastfast.
sick of my hair and my room's condition.
new tv,new sofa,new cabinet perhaps?
Just wana revamp everything.HAHA.
Yes,and meet up with friends to chill,shop,eat buffet,picnic,sentosa,chalet,msia trip.
I kan cheong spider to the core already.
Life is bless. :)